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Finally did my workout sess on the wii a few minutes ago. Yeup, 6-7 songs - dancing my ass off; then doing sets of lifting weights. After two days without sweating due to my eyes, I finally feel like my usual self. Thank God! Still adjusting to my lenses though... they are hella strong!! My eyes totally got worst after two years with out seeing the optometrist. Anyways, this morning when I was reading the newspaper, Saipan Tribune of course, I saw this ad about fair prices to the West coast! Holy fricken shizzles!! Guess how much it is to fly to Hawaii?????? 900 bucks! Can you believe that shizzno?! I can't! I so want to go, but sadly I can't :-( I would man, I would do anything to get away from this fucking island...even if its just for a couple of weeks before school starts. Can a miracle just happen already? Sheesh. I want to travel this world already, but unfortunately I'm still in highschool. That bites. I can't wait till I'm finally 18, independent- college life, traveling, meeting new people, clubbing, paying bills, falling in love..eh, finding a part time job while studying at Chaminade University... oh, JOY! God, I am so excited right now. But I still need three more effing years-__- can I just fast forward to the future already? SMH. I wish it was that easy. But like the saying goes, "If you want something, go get it. If you have to wait, then be patient, because good things come to people who wait." So, that concludes this post, I guess i'll be waiting...
-lovealohana

Dwelling.

School supply shopping, picking an outfit to wear, yup its that time of year where you wish summer was longer... I mean, give me a few more months, then I'll be ready. Lol! No but really, just thinking about school makes me wanna barf. Ew, who wants to go back to writing 4 page essays?? NOT ME. Fuck no. Not to mention Geometry...and hell, Biology?? Oh fuck me now. -____- Sophomore year is going to be the biggest bitch ever... I'll be taking most of required classes and hopefully joining more clubs. I'm still debating if I should move for good. I mean I want to get out of this shithole island but man, just thinking about leaving home, especially my momma puts a huge hole in my chest. But I need to be strong. I need to prove those who have underestimated me that I can do things even myself couldn't imagine doing. I feel that if I stay here in Saipan, and continue my studies here, i'll never learn what's independence. I'll never get to experience the other side of the world, the people and culture. I may not like it, but i'll learn to respect it. I just hope I make the right choice with whatever I decide to do. I mean, everything happens for a reason, right?

Sigh, I truly need more time to figure things out. I know what I want, I guess I'm just scared to pursue them.